Archives For Life


By Nate LaClaire —  November 27, 2008 — Leave a comment

I was thinking last Sunday about how my life has changed over the past year and that has led me to several days of consideration about this topic. Some know that on my 26th birthday I was frustrated about where I was in life and set a list of goals to achieve before my next birthday. As August 2008 approached, I became more and more depressed and frustrated by the fact that I still hadn’t achieved most of my goals. Well, my 27th birthday has come and gone and I still haven’t achieved most of the goals on that list. Know what? I still care, because all of the goals will have a lasting and positive impact on my life, but I am no longer mad. I realized on Sunday that while I was focusing on certain areas of my life, something else was happening. My list of goals included reconnecting with one old friend. Aside from that, the goals had nothing to do with friendships, or relationships of any kind. What I realized on Sunday was that God had other plans: to give me the quality relationships that I so much needed. Over the past year, I have formed closer friendships with people that I have known for several years but hadn’t been close to, restored close friendships with people I had drifted away from, reconnected with people I had lost touch with, and formed new friendships. A few days after my birthday last year, someone commented to me about telling my friends something. Although I kept this to myself, I realized at that moment that although I had “friends,” I hadn’t been giving myself time for friendships. I knew people that I would consider friends, but I couldn’t be sure they felt the same way about me. Then there were the people that I knew I could count on as friends to help me out in a pinch, but could they say the same about me? 

No man is an island and I am living proof. Through Facebook and LinkedIn, I have reconnected with those I have missed communicating with. Through church and college, I have built new friendships and rekindled old ones. Meanwhile, I have learned who my real friends were that I was just too blind to recognize. I discovered the true meaning of friendship and learned what a real relationship looks like.

I thank God for what He has done in my life this past year. I pray that I will never again get so caught up in my own list of goals that I miss the work He is doing in my life.

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By Nate LaClaire —  August 13, 2008 — Leave a comment

O how the world to evil allures me!
O how my heart is tempted to sin!
I must tell Jesus, and He will help me
Over the world the vict’ry to win.
– Elisha A. Hoffman, “I Must Tell Jesus,” verse 3

A few months ago, during a worship service, I was playing “I Must Tell Jesus” and singing it with the congregation. Now, I have sung and played this song many, many times before – many tens if not hundreds of times – but this time, those words from the third verse stood out. Sometimes it seems to me, especially with hymns, that the words are wonderful and spiritual, but lack reality. Like when we sing hymns about raising hands in celebration in a very conservative church with no one raising any hands. Or when we sing about giving up everything for the cause of Christ, knowing full well that few if any of us will ever make such a sacrifice. Not this time… those words fit me exactly at that moment. My eyes actually teared up as I was playing, which seldom happens. It was a moment from God, a reminder that only through Him can I ever hope to find victory over my temptations. I praise God that He brought those words to me when I needed them most and, most of all, that He will give me the strength to stand up against my selfish addictions. Praise the Lord!


By Nate LaClaire —  January 23, 2008 — Leave a comment


Those were the words that flashed in the corner of my computer screen at a few minutes after 5 pm Tuesday afternoon. I was working on a project for a client and had Outlook running when a update arrived in my email Inbox. The message stopped me cold. It is amazing how quickly thoughts can come and yet how slow they can feel. I read the first word and thought, “that’s sad – an actor died. I wonder if it’s someone I know of?” Then I saw the name and my heart stopped. “He’s, like, my age,” I thought. I absentmindedly stopped the clock on my project and went first to IMDB to confirm his birthdate (he was actually 2 years older than I) and then to to learn more. At that point, not much was known. As I write this, has much more information than it did at that time and IMDB has this statement on its home page:

Actor Heath Ledger was found dead at a Manhattan apartment Tuesday afternoon in what appeared to be a possible drug-related death; he was 28.

I’ll come back to that in a moment.

I can’t explain why this has bothered me so much. People younger than I die every day and, while it saddens me, it doesn’t affect me like this. I wouldn’t call myself a Heath Ledger fan, although he was a good actor and I enjoyed a few of his movies. Perhaps it was just that initial shock of thinking the news update was referring to an elderly actor and then discovering it was a young actor. Or, perhaps, it was the fact that the headline made it sound like he was found on the streets of New York, the victim of a crime. In reality, it is unknown at this point if he died of an accidental overdose of sleeping medication, committed suicide, or died some other way.

That brings me back to the IMDB quote above… Immediately, IMDB casts a negative overtone over his death. Can those who are mourning not do so in peace? Must they immediately be made to put up with people suggesting he had a drug problem? That is what IMDB is suggesting, although they are being careful not to say it. That may be correct, but I’m sick of this stuff they pull.

Regarding perspective… (maybe this is what is bothering me) I was thinking this afternoon about where I might be in 2 years. This news gives me a new perspective on that. It makes me, more than ever, want to live my life to the fullest today and not put that off until tomorrow. None of us knows what will have happened by then.

Regarding my absence from posting to my blog: well, I’ve been busy.

The Ultimate Gift

By Nate LaClaire —  October 9, 2007 — Leave a comment

A couple weeks ago I finally went to FYE and bought The Ultimate Gift on DVD, after asking at the Bible Bookstore and being told that they had no plans of getting it. I watched it with my family the next night. I must say that if the trailer had been more honest, I probably wouldn’t have watched the movie. That might possibly have been the biggest mistake of my life. The Ultimate Gift is one of the best movies I have ever seen. Although heart-wrenching at times, the story is one of hope, of life not wasted, and of true love of the non-romantic nature (although the romantic kind may be found in the movie as well). Now I need to read the book. If you have not yet seen this movie, please take my advice: watch it today. I guarantee that you’ll come away a changed person. All of us can benefit in one way or another from The Ultimate Gift.

Warning: have a box of tissues handy when you watch this. My family agrees that we don’t regret watching the movie, but all five of us had tears in our eyes for much of the movie. You’ll find tearfully happy and tearfully sad moments, but the happy ones far outweigh the sad.

Meteor Shower

By Nate LaClaire —  August 13, 2007

I saw the meteor shower this evening. What an awesome testimony to God’s power and His wonderful creation! I understand that last night would have been the best night to watch it, but in about ten minutes I saw at least four meteors and possibly another out of the corner of my eye. Just looking at the stars is amazing and something I seldom stop to do now. I don’t know how people can look at such a spectacle and question intelligent design.

A veritable dichotomy

By Nate LaClaire —  March 31, 2006 — Leave a comment

In our neighborhood, there are several dogs that bark all evening. One gets started and the others follow. It seems that they must all be chained out all night, for it doesn’t seem to matter what time I go to bed, I generally hear them while in bed. It’s a creepy sound – all of those dogs barking at once from all over the neighborhood. However, tonight I do not hear a single dog as I sit in bed typing this. Now that has me freaked out. It has become such a common occurrence that the lack of dogs barking now seems creepy. Go figure.

Googled Out

By Nate LaClaire —  February 14, 2006 — Leave a comment

I recently commented to a friend that I sometimes feel like I spend my entire life on Google. Until I saw my Google Trends today, though, I didn’t realize how right that statement was.


It appears that I have made over 2000 searches on Google since last May. That doesn’t include all of the searches I have made when I wasn’t logged in to Google. Yikes! I need a life…


By Nate LaClaire —  December 6, 2005 — Leave a comment

The whole idea of a blog is kind of odd… I mean, who really cares what is going on with me, or what I think about the latest legislation? Does anyone care? Should anyone care? Probably not.

I first started my blog back when I left my old job and related lifestyle (more on that some other time) and wanted to provide a method for people to keep up on what is happening in my life. Unfortunately, it’s hard to take time to write blog posts when I can’t find time to do stuff that earns me money or stuff that is required for college. However, I want to do better. If I find something interesting on the web I want to tell the world about it. If I read an interesting verse in the Bible I want to blog it. If something exciting, or neat, or frustrating happens in my life I want to share it with others. As I get more photos of Riley (my cat) or my family I will post those, too.

I have been reprimanded for dropping off the face of the earth… The fact is, I miss my old life. The fact is, if I could undo what I did I just might do it. The fact is, my decision was not a mistake, as God has proven to me time and time again (I’ll share more about that later as well). The fact is, making any decision other than the one that I made would have been a mistake. So, where does that leave me? Still right here trying to piece together a life after the library; trying to retain friendships that were formed while I was at the library; trying to move ahead without leaving that all behind.

Have you ever felt too comfortable with your life? I knew that if I didn’t exit soon I could be stuck forever. Sometimes it seemed like I had grown up at the library. Like it was my second home. Now when I go back it feels odd… Like walking into a place that used to be familiar but is familiar no longer. The same friendly people are there, but it’s not the same. It never will be.

I know that most people won’t care about most of what I post on my blog, but perhaps each thing that I write will be meaningful to some person in some way. That is my prayer. Thanks for reading.

October 1

By Nate LaClaire —  October 1, 2005 — Leave a comment

October 1 is here. The trees are turning, autumn weather is upon us. Beautiful autumn weather. Today is Community Day here in Poland, Maine. This year’s event is being run by the Poland Recreation Department and is being held at the Poland Regional High School. I will be going to the event at around 11:00 this morning to help the Friends of the Library with their cake walk.

Last night I was invited to go along with the library staff for the end-of-summer staff party. We went to Julian’s in Gray. The party was also a going-away party for Joanne Wildes, a dear friend, fellow believer, part-time library employee, and just plain great lady who is moving to Rhode Island with her husband in another month. Dick, her husband, attended the party as well and we all had a very nice time.

Life has been busy since my last post. My college classes are in full swing and choir has now begun. So, when my business is figured in to the whole thing, free time is not something I experience very often. However, my grades are doing well, as is my business – so it is worth the stress.

A friend of the family, Philip Stange, is staying with my family this weekend. The weekend promises to be a lot of fun! Unfortunately, I have some (typical for me) last-minute school work to do, but I am sure I will have time to recreate as well. According to Philip my web site is easily findable by someone who is not looking for it. 🙂 He told me that his mom found it and sent him the address. Hello world!

I am committed to not making promises I can’t keep. However, I do seriously hope to post something else before another month+ has passed.